She loved you hard
She could give you a new life
Yet you keep your doors closed
Because you don’t know how to love
You saw your parents fight, and fight dirty
But the fight wasn’t the problem
It was the fake show of a happy marriage in public while they couldn’t stand each other behind closed doors
And… they called it love
You saw your friends loving someone
With little knowledge of their partner’s intentions
Later suffering a heartbreak
And… misery that followed
But then the optimist in you thought, let’s give love a change.
It was a risk, yet you tried, and tried your best
But you didn’t know what it meant when your messages were replied in hours even though they were online all the time
Nor did you understand how they had immense power over you even though you were the one giving all the efforts
Now you see love as a gamble, and you don’t gamble
You know she loves you, but you don’t know how to love
You are too scared to love
You suspect her all the time
Is she talking to other men?
Does she really love me or just needs me?
Or may be she loves me now but will soon fall out of it?
The shell won’t break easily now